By Libby Lewis, CNN
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(CNN) – Lazzaric Caldwell almost joined the dark group of military troops who kill themselves.
These are his thoughts just before he cut his wrists in his barracks a couple of years ago:
[:03] "I started to think, what would happen when I’m out of the Marine Corps? With having PTSD, the first thing that popped into my mind was, not to be funny, but one of the Vietnam vets who’s lost his marbles, and is on the side of the road with that sign. I was crying on the phone, telling my Dad that I was sorry for everything that was about to happen."
He lived. And the Marine Corps prosecuted him for trying to kill himself. The Corps argued Caldwell’s act of intentional self-injury harmed the order and discipline of his unit and discredited the military.
Now, the highest military court is considering whether it was right for the Marine Corps to convict him, at a time when the military is trying to stem a tide of suicides in its ranks.
Caldwell’s case has prompted the Pentagon to review its rules for dealing with suicide attempts.
Lazzaric Caldwell joined the Marines for the reason so many young men and women do: to get a better life and get out of trouble’s way.
But it turns out, he walked right into it. Listen to hear the rest of his story.